Switching to another blog.

∼July 10, 2015∼

Four years have passed and so much have changed.
I got my bachelor degree (= dental hygienist) now so I am basically an adult now.

I remember that I used to be so insecure when I started blogging. 
I just wanted something to pass my time. And it was. It really was. 
I found myself absorbed with the idea of blogging and I just wanted to be heard and seen.

Now I'm experiencing something completely different. 
I want a blog where I am completely anonymous and nobody(my friends/family) knows the name of the blog. 

A safe place where I can write other stuff. I feel like this blog doesn't allow me to do so because I don't want my friends nor family to know all my secrets. 

I can't have people from my real life knowing too much about me. 
I want a blog where I can write whatever I feel like in however way I want. 

I just feel like I can't do it with this blog. 
It has just become too searchable.

The purpose of my blog was to write about my life and whatever I am experiencing.
And with this blog, I just can't.

Therefor I am switching to another blog - where I will be writing about some of my real stories. 
A lot more personal. A lot more racy. A lot more me as I am now. 

This blog has become outdated, but I'll keep it since it has a lot of memories.

I'll probably come back when I get bored. lol.

If you need to contact me - msg me on facebook or write a comment with your email so I can reply.

Lots of love,

I am too much or you're just too little?

∼March 11, 2015∼

As much as I love guys - that's as much as I hate them.
I might be confusing and I have all these thoughts running through my head, but seriously? 
Why you getting your panties into twist when things don't go the way you want it too?

Momma never taught you that we all are different? 

I know what I want, but it doesn't mean everything is as simple as they appear.

Maybe one day I am like this; and the other I am like that.
One day I like you and the next day you piss me off.

You can never be sure of everything especially when the foundation is weak.

You say you're a honest man? Sure, I believe you.
And believe me too when I say I am honest, but I can still do whatever I want ya know.
Things doesn't always go as smooth as you want it to be just because you're honest.

Never think I am as simple as I appear to be.
I just want that easy peasy happy life.

Don't try to hold me to anything. I won't have it. 
As fast as you came into my life - that's as fast as you're out of it.
It really doesn't make any difference to me. 

"Have a great life."
Oh yeah, thanks and you too.

"I can't deal with this."
Oh okay, I can't deal with you!

I won't be missing you. So we good.
Kisses and hugs /rant over.

Unspoken words tell stories

∼March 2, 2015∼

{ twins }
I asked you: "can you do me a favor and say this "x" to me next time if asked?"

It's funny how alike you are in the beginning, but in the end you're completely different.

We never used to argue, but now it's a weekly thing. I wonder when we grew apart? Or if it has always been this way..

Were we always this different from each other? And why is that so? 

I love you, but I feel suffocated. I don't know how to talk to you. I don't know how to please you.. Can we rewind to the time where times were more simple?

You say you support my decisions, and I believe you, but why won't you try to listen to my wishes? Are the difficult to answer? Or am I asking too much? 

I know you don't like certain people like I do, but without saying it directly to me — I know. I just need you to show me more faith. I don't like this negative energy of you saying you don't like certain people. I have never been a fan of negativity.

I don't like it. So please say it in another way. Can you please do it for me?

Or should I just accept that you won't change your ways and I should take what I can get?

I am never going be involved with anyone. I might as well live as a frickin nun. It's a frickin hassle anyways. :)

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